Now i know how does it feels like to have your feelings bottled up. Maybe i'll feel better after letting it out? Maybe things will turn out to be better? Can't give my 100% concentration with this shit in me. However if i let it off my chest, i must be prepared to face those awful consequences.

This is when religon comes into handy i suppose. When you need guidance. Too bad i'm a free thinker. Somebody guide me!